Visiting Boston Was Hard But I Refuse To Regress

"A feeling that didn't go away just did.
And I walked a thousand miles to prove it."

My Blood, Ellie Goulding

Breakthrough

The last year was horrible, but it was really nothing.

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Look up there, at that sentence!!  I wrote that!

My Life Is Like A Linen Garment

My life is like a linen garment,
Not innocent or shy or new,
But I once grew young and green and vibrant,
Watered with the freshest dew.

I was uprooted, drowned in water,
Held there under current cold.
Something broke down deep within me.
I could not withstand the mold.

Retted, torn, and sodden deeply,
I was beaten black and blue
Til my shell was loosened from me.
Nothing left for clinging to.

I was done, I thought, quite truly,
As I bleached out in the sun,
But I was spun, then, woven newly.
Another life had just begun.

My life is like a linen garment;
Fibres made from rotted weed.
My first and second dreams of grandeur
Passed, but now I'm strong indeed.

"Cycle" by Louise Feneley

12/50 Reasons

I like my body.  I think it is quite beautiful.  It is athletic-looking without me having to do anything athletic.  It is thin enough without me having to worry about my diet.  It is fairly strong, reasonably tan-able, with defined lines and graceful features, and it cooperates with me in doing a lot of fun things like dancing, sewing, walking, sleeping, and stretching.  I used to be unhappy with my body, but I've grown into it since I was thirteen, and it fits me perfectly now.

11/15 Reasons

I laugh a lot.  That doesn't mean that I'm funny, it just means I find lots of things funny, whether they really are or not.  Babies can make me laugh just by looking at me.  Sunshine makes me laugh when it dances on my face.  Books make me laugh all the time.  Hanging out with my friends is practically one long laugh (unless it is one long sigh)!  This all probably means that I'm going to have a long and healthy life.  I'm sure it often makes me look silly or naive, and sometimes I laugh way too loudly.  But I have long had an ambition to be the girl whose laughter rings out sans inhibition, delighting all and annoying some (sic), and it feels good.  So I'll just keep at it. And when I have kids, my laugh will serve as a mom-locator, just like my mother's was before me.

Pressure

My head is clear and my fingertips feel heavy as I wrap these teacups one by one. 
The ground is right there, under my feet. 
The breeze just moves the air.
Nothing feels magical today. 
I don't believe in anything but the pressure on my skin.

Jane, Wishing, cover illustration by Trina Schart Hyman

10/50 Reasons

I try my hardest to follow promptings from God.  I don't just want to live a fun life or a beautiful life, I want to live the life that will make me into the person, the being, that is my potential.  Sometimes that means doing easy things, the things that I already want to do.  Sometimes it means doing the exact opposite of what I want to do or even the opposite of what makes sense.  And a lot of the time it means I do things without knowing why.  But so far He has never steered me wrong, and I will continue to trust in Him.